The Antagonists Defense

People always say that I have high standards when the truth is I just want everything to be perfect! A life of perfection is hardwork and I can evaluate myself as not trying too hard to achieve perfection but still, I want everything to be perfect! Who doesn't want perfect?

In a way, most people would say, I am a perfectionist who has high standards and all of that antagonist stuff! Okay, I admit that I am an antagonist. For everyone! The perfect example would be my sister. For her, for everyone, I am an antagonist in her life. I AM NOT.

I am being an older brother who cares for his sister and has her good intentions but people don't see that! People see that I am a control freak and the mean one.

I am not really speaking to my sister right now ( I don't know if she noticed) because I, as cruel for me to say this, hate her for now. Let me explain.

All her life I have been there for her. I am not just her brother, in a way I am her parent. I took care of her ever since we were young as my parents were not here most of our lives working abroad. Woah! Wait a minute! Hold that thought! I don't hate my parents for not being with us because I truly understand their sacrifice! Back to my prodigal sister, I may not have always been the older brother because sometimes I'm more immature but heck I have been THERE every step of the way! And what has she given me in return? NOTHING!

I love my sister unconditionally but she really is hard headed and, ahem, has poor taste. I have taught her everything, her studies, life and, ummm... life! Whenever she needed help, I would be there trying my best. When I was the one in need, she would just not care! Okay she would but she wouldn't try to help. It's always been about her!

I can enumerate everything she has done, the decisions she made, everything! But I don't wash my dirty linen in public! I may be doing it now but it's just the minor stains. Bleh! The reason why I'm not talking to her is that she has a boyfriend who is just... wrong! I mean, he's ugly, he dresses like a porter, he's from CU (I'm not judging the school), he has no CLASS! And that's just not my opinion! How dare she embarass me like this? How dare she embarass me my whole life! SHE is an embarassment to our family! Gosh! It's like a Monaco Monarchy feud in here! I'm Caroline, she's Stephanie!

We had an encounter this night when we caught the same jeepney. I was with friends and she was with her *BLEEP* boyfriend! I said one word that was insulting and I'm not sorry for it! The guy was shocked that I said it, probably even mad! My sister was mad that's for sure! And who cares?

Gosh! How people in your life who you expect to be at least not embarass you do the exact opposite! Even more!