Numbers! I hate numbers! Numbers here, numbers there, numbers everywhere! Why do people have to deal with numbers everyday? I guess you can give me millions of answers to that if you're being an asshole but seriously! Numbers! Who doesn't hate them? Well, a lot of people don't! But I hate them! Just the sound of them makes me cringe!
Wanna know what I hate the most? Math! Math! Freakin' Math! Integers, fractions, exponents and all those shiz! I really hate it to the extremes! Those pesky mathematical problems! Why can't they just leave me alone? I don't need math in my life!
Or maybe I do! But still! Does the store cashier ask me the value of x? Can you really use squared and cubed in real life? Monomials in buying a soda? Fractions in spas? No! No! No! You just can't! So why do we have to study about it? The torture! The suffering! The agony!
Those smart people of the past! I mean, come on! Why didn't you just keep your equations to yourselves? That's not so hard to do! Look what you've put me through? The people who flunk school because of math! I hope you're very happy!
P.S. I have a Math exam tomorrow.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
His Weird Nose I Will Miss
Somebody I idolize so much has passed away. I am completely shocked and deeply saddened when a friend of mine sent me a text message that the person who is one of the many people that inspire me is no longer with us.
It hurts to talk about people we love when they pass away but we have to move on in order to move forward (redundant much?) in our lives. You know what they say, the people that are important and special to us, when they leave the world, they only leave physically but they will always stay in our hearts forever and continue to inspire us that life is short and we musn't take it for granted and instead live it to the fullest.
It's really heartbreaking that he died at such an early age of 50. Some people aren't even married at that age nowadays. Okay, maybe they got divorced or something. Shit happens.
My message to one of my many inspirations is this:
I am going to miss you so much. You have inspired me in many ways and many people too. We are all grieving your untimely death as we expected to see more of you in the upcoming months. Know that you will always be in our hearts and nothing can take you away from there. Not even amnesia or some weird illness can erase you. Again, I miss you. We miss you. I'm sure you're missing us too. But don't visit okay?
I love you forever, we love you forever Michael Jackson.
Sus! Abi ninyo ug kinsa noh? Pero seriously I'm gonna miss him jud! As in!
It hurts to talk about people we love when they pass away but we have to move on in order to move forward (redundant much?) in our lives. You know what they say, the people that are important and special to us, when they leave the world, they only leave physically but they will always stay in our hearts forever and continue to inspire us that life is short and we musn't take it for granted and instead live it to the fullest.
It's really heartbreaking that he died at such an early age of 50. Some people aren't even married at that age nowadays. Okay, maybe they got divorced or something. Shit happens.
My message to one of my many inspirations is this:
I am going to miss you so much. You have inspired me in many ways and many people too. We are all grieving your untimely death as we expected to see more of you in the upcoming months. Know that you will always be in our hearts and nothing can take you away from there. Not even amnesia or some weird illness can erase you. Again, I miss you. We miss you. I'm sure you're missing us too. But don't visit okay?
I love you forever, we love you forever Michael Jackson.
Sus! Abi ninyo ug kinsa noh? Pero seriously I'm gonna miss him jud! As in!
CU at XU
Have you ever had that feeling when you miss something or someone that you just can't take thinking about what they look like or going to the places you've been to? Well, I had a blast from the past when I accompanied my friend to Xavier University Highschool (it feels weird not typing those words for a very long time!).
My friend was delivering something there when she invited me and I got nervous for a second. It was like hell froze over or something. I know it's kind of exaggerating but it was what I felt the moment my friend texted "going to xuhs, wanna come"?
As we were nearly approaching the school I was getting cold feet (literaly). I mean, I wanted to visit XUHS for a very long time but I just couldn't because if I would I'm gonna be very hurt and sad. There's so much memories left there.
I mustered my strenghth and as I stepped in there were major improvements! Everything was a lot nicer now than before. Though I was a little dissapointed that the school got rid of the open shed for stone benches and a table. My friend and I immediately exchanged our stories from the past and it was really fun to reminisce memories. I mean, now that I have visited the school again I think I'm gonna be able to go back without feeling so hurt or sad anymore.
I didn't really enjoy my highschool life as I spent way too much time away from it. I feel like I have missed half of my life! If only I could turn back time! But then, our choices makes us who we are, right? If I went back and changed everything I would have no idea what my life would be now. I'm not saying that my life is a cherry on top of a mouth watering sundae but still, you know, I wouldn't have met amazing people I have in my life right now. Char lang!
My friend was delivering something there when she invited me and I got nervous for a second. It was like hell froze over or something. I know it's kind of exaggerating but it was what I felt the moment my friend texted "going to xuhs, wanna come"?
As we were nearly approaching the school I was getting cold feet (literaly). I mean, I wanted to visit XUHS for a very long time but I just couldn't because if I would I'm gonna be very hurt and sad. There's so much memories left there.
I mustered my strenghth and as I stepped in there were major improvements! Everything was a lot nicer now than before. Though I was a little dissapointed that the school got rid of the open shed for stone benches and a table. My friend and I immediately exchanged our stories from the past and it was really fun to reminisce memories. I mean, now that I have visited the school again I think I'm gonna be able to go back without feeling so hurt or sad anymore.
I didn't really enjoy my highschool life as I spent way too much time away from it. I feel like I have missed half of my life! If only I could turn back time! But then, our choices makes us who we are, right? If I went back and changed everything I would have no idea what my life would be now. I'm not saying that my life is a cherry on top of a mouth watering sundae but still, you know, I wouldn't have met amazing people I have in my life right now. Char lang!
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Cool people over here. Weirdos on the other side. That means you, Joulo!
I know you're probably sick and tired of reading about my rants about being a friendless loser and stuff but you've gotta hear me out! I just can't take away the frustration that I feel everyday especially after the series of unfortunate events that happened this day.
Thursday; June 25, 2009
9:00 AM: I thought my class would start at 8:30 am so I arrived at school as early as 7:40 am. There was this large queue going on outside our classroom as the doors weren't open yet. I was talking to some people but not really having a conversation. I was all alone while everybody was laughing and enjoying themselves. Its like they're doing it on purpose or something!
11:00 AM: There was literally nobody replying any of my messages as soon as my class got dismissed. I was like, frustrated! Damn! Who am I going to lunch with? So my friend keeps telling me to join other groups but I'm hesitant because they don't even smile at me.
Finally, my friend replied that she'd love to go to lunch with me but she was with a friend so apparently I had to deal with it. And I did. But before we could meet I had to wait at the canteen for her because she was in her class still. So I waited.
I have this classmate who is also my friend (but we're not close) who passed by me and he asked if I had seen his friends who are also my classmates. I said I haven't and offered him a seat. He refused. Rejection to the highest level! He said he was gonna look for them.
My other classmates passed by me and they all looked at me weirdly. They had this face that said "Is he alone? Again? What's new?". I was so embarassed! Argh!
My friend who was looking for his friends came back and told me that he didn't see them anywhere so he sat in the table with me. Another major rejection! Why? I mean, what am I? A last resort? I felt so hurt. I accompanied him to the counselling office anyway.
11:40 AM: I was already eating my lunch at McDonalds Ororama. I was really friendly toward my friends friend who had a gorgoeus Burberry bag sitting pretty in her lap. She was a rich girl who had to leave after we ate because she had a laser appointment for her underarms.
She was friendly towards me but there was something really "off" with her. I just felt that if we were friends we wouldn't like each other the next week after we met.
My friend and I headed back to school and while we were there we were talking and stuff and met other friends.
1:25 PM: Classes for RS15 resume. One of my fave subject but is very boring to death!
Fast forward to 4:00 PM: Classes were cut off for the Red Mass which I didn't attend because I didn't have anyone to go with. Remember my friend who was looking for someone whom I accompanied to the counsellors office (what a mouthful)? Well, I asked him if he was attending the mass and he said he won't. Fine.
I saw my friend whom I had lunch with and begged her to chaperonne me and she said she could but only after 4:50 pm because she had a friend who was waiting for her. I wasn't mad or anything but I didn't realize I had a time limit. How painful.
I saw my friend again, you know, the one who was looking for someone whom I accompanied to the counsellors office, he was with other guys and I asked him again if he was going and he said yes. Uhmm.. didn't he just say no? He changed his mind? Maybe. He blew me off because he had other plans? Probably. But if he did why would he lie? Or maybe he just changed his mind? I don't know. It's hard to know!
My friend whom I had lunch with met up with her other friends and I couldn't help but feel left out! Rejected and hurt! And then I remembered something she told me while we were talking last time. She had this guy she was talking with on the phone who told her she saw her with a guy.
She replied "Ah, si Joulo?"
Then he said "Ah, kato laging sige ug uban-uban sa inyo ni Natasha?"
Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!
Is that what I am? I'm just a "katong sige ug uban-uban"? He could've said "Ah, katong friend nimo nga sige gani mo ug uban"? I felt so hurt. All this time I'm just a hanger-on to my friends. Or at least thats what their friends think of me.
Can I just be Joulo the Friend? Why is it that when people talk about me they refer me to someone else or something else? I feel like I just can't be my own person anymore! Worse is that I can't be my own person and I don't have any friends! So what's left of me? A physical body and a life of what people make for me? Damn!
I can't even describe how I feel truly hurt. Why can't people just accept my flaws? Or deal with it? Why cant my friend whom I had lunch with, a person I had known for a long time still subconciously(or conciously) reject me and make feel like a small person whenever I'm with her?
I'm a person with a few friends. Not everybody likes me, the majority. Why cant my few friends make me feel assured, secured and happy? I don't know if I'm the problem or I just can't deal with the problems around me.
Friendless loser? Me. Nerd? Me. Geek and freaky? Me.
I'm not even exaggerating. I feel hurt, sad and lost. When will it be my time to be me and shine like the others? Or will there ever be?
I'm not asking for sympathy, just your understanding. Or not. Just keep reading my blog, that would be fine.
Thursday; June 25, 2009
9:00 AM: I thought my class would start at 8:30 am so I arrived at school as early as 7:40 am. There was this large queue going on outside our classroom as the doors weren't open yet. I was talking to some people but not really having a conversation. I was all alone while everybody was laughing and enjoying themselves. Its like they're doing it on purpose or something!
11:00 AM: There was literally nobody replying any of my messages as soon as my class got dismissed. I was like, frustrated! Damn! Who am I going to lunch with? So my friend keeps telling me to join other groups but I'm hesitant because they don't even smile at me.
Finally, my friend replied that she'd love to go to lunch with me but she was with a friend so apparently I had to deal with it. And I did. But before we could meet I had to wait at the canteen for her because she was in her class still. So I waited.
I have this classmate who is also my friend (but we're not close) who passed by me and he asked if I had seen his friends who are also my classmates. I said I haven't and offered him a seat. He refused. Rejection to the highest level! He said he was gonna look for them.
My other classmates passed by me and they all looked at me weirdly. They had this face that said "Is he alone? Again? What's new?". I was so embarassed! Argh!
My friend who was looking for his friends came back and told me that he didn't see them anywhere so he sat in the table with me. Another major rejection! Why? I mean, what am I? A last resort? I felt so hurt. I accompanied him to the counselling office anyway.
11:40 AM: I was already eating my lunch at McDonalds Ororama. I was really friendly toward my friends friend who had a gorgoeus Burberry bag sitting pretty in her lap. She was a rich girl who had to leave after we ate because she had a laser appointment for her underarms.
She was friendly towards me but there was something really "off" with her. I just felt that if we were friends we wouldn't like each other the next week after we met.
My friend and I headed back to school and while we were there we were talking and stuff and met other friends.
1:25 PM: Classes for RS15 resume. One of my fave subject but is very boring to death!
Fast forward to 4:00 PM: Classes were cut off for the Red Mass which I didn't attend because I didn't have anyone to go with. Remember my friend who was looking for someone whom I accompanied to the counsellors office (what a mouthful)? Well, I asked him if he was attending the mass and he said he won't. Fine.
I saw my friend whom I had lunch with and begged her to chaperonne me and she said she could but only after 4:50 pm because she had a friend who was waiting for her. I wasn't mad or anything but I didn't realize I had a time limit. How painful.
I saw my friend again, you know, the one who was looking for someone whom I accompanied to the counsellors office, he was with other guys and I asked him again if he was going and he said yes. Uhmm.. didn't he just say no? He changed his mind? Maybe. He blew me off because he had other plans? Probably. But if he did why would he lie? Or maybe he just changed his mind? I don't know. It's hard to know!
My friend whom I had lunch with met up with her other friends and I couldn't help but feel left out! Rejected and hurt! And then I remembered something she told me while we were talking last time. She had this guy she was talking with on the phone who told her she saw her with a guy.
She replied "Ah, si Joulo?"
Then he said "Ah, kato laging sige ug uban-uban sa inyo ni Natasha?"
Ouch! Ouch! Ouch!
Is that what I am? I'm just a "katong sige ug uban-uban"? He could've said "Ah, katong friend nimo nga sige gani mo ug uban"? I felt so hurt. All this time I'm just a hanger-on to my friends. Or at least thats what their friends think of me.
Can I just be Joulo the Friend? Why is it that when people talk about me they refer me to someone else or something else? I feel like I just can't be my own person anymore! Worse is that I can't be my own person and I don't have any friends! So what's left of me? A physical body and a life of what people make for me? Damn!
I can't even describe how I feel truly hurt. Why can't people just accept my flaws? Or deal with it? Why cant my friend whom I had lunch with, a person I had known for a long time still subconciously(or conciously) reject me and make feel like a small person whenever I'm with her?
I'm a person with a few friends. Not everybody likes me, the majority. Why cant my few friends make me feel assured, secured and happy? I don't know if I'm the problem or I just can't deal with the problems around me.
Friendless loser? Me. Nerd? Me. Geek and freaky? Me.
I'm not even exaggerating. I feel hurt, sad and lost. When will it be my time to be me and shine like the others? Or will there ever be?
I'm not asking for sympathy, just your understanding. Or not. Just keep reading my blog, that would be fine.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
I Love Me Some Dakota
I was over at a friends house last Thursday when she showed me her copy of a Vogue back issue. Of course, I got excited to flip the pages because it was Vogue magazine and I love Vogue! Who doesn't?
As I was turning the pages I saw the Marc by Marc Jacobs ad starring Dakota Fanning. I've heard of the ad before but haven't really had the chance to look it up as there was nothing intriguing about a celebrity in a fashion ad. But when I saw it I was completely blown away by how avant garde it was. I mean it was really pedophile-ish. A young Dakota for the fashion world.
I know it doesn't look striking or anything but it's innocent Dakota for a fashion house. Get it?
Monday, June 15, 2009
Joulo's Defense: Friendless Edition
I am such a friendless loser. I mean, I have a lot of friends but they don't really have a long shelf life. I'm not a meanie (oh really) or something (what something?). I just don't really know how to treat people well (spot on!) or maybe I don't treat my self well (shrink?). I don't know (oh sure you do!).
I don't even have a bestfriend for starters. Who on earth doesn't have a bestfriend (uhmm.. Joulo, that's you)?
A fortnight ago I was attending the ORSEM (for dummies or just plain ignorants: Orientation Seminar) for my school. I didn't have one person approach me! Well, except for this random girl that reminded me of my past classmate: ugly, skinny, cheapster, etc. No offense to her! I mean it's not her fault she was born (or bred?) like that (no wonder you don't have friends).
Why am I always the one doing the approaching? Doing the awkward and scary act of making friends? Why? I have a thick face (you do)? I do? No I haven't (denial!)! Okay, so maybe I do (thank you Jesus!), is that bad (no!)? O' course not (hell to the yeah!)! That's actually a good thing. Whenever I make friends it's like it's always the wrong person! Like not my type. You know (no)? That kind of person you just made friends with for the hell of it (how mean!)?
I know what you're gonna say, "How do you know that the person that approached you would be your type of friend?" (alam mo naman pala, eh). But the point is that I'm the one always making the first move? It's just so frustrating! What's wrong? I look approachable (so you said)! I look like someone who won't reject or judge a person (how 'bout a look in the mirror pal).
This day I was at Manresa Farm for the Aggies Freshmen Day and still friendless. Well, except for Dave (my first move, not really my type of friend (no offense Dave)) and Alex (neighbour. So you figure it out). I ate alone at Greenwich in a big table. The meal of shame (more like meal of karma!). It wasn't totally embarassing but some of my batch mates saw me alone! What a loser (couldn't agree with you more)! What? (sorry)
I need advice. Or your pity. Or whatever. Befriend me (acts of desperation). I'm not desperate. (okaaay)
P.S. I'm sorry about my alter ego! Whatever I write he comments!
(P.S. I'm sorry about Joulo. You know how he is.)
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Of Aqualung, Ashton and Plato
A friend of mine introduced me to a song she loved and I being a music lover couldn't wait to listen to what she was recommending. The song was Brighter Than Sunshine by Aqualung taken from the movie A Lot Like Love starring Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet. I haven't seen the movie yet but I saw the trailer years ago and fell in love. I know, you're like "you fell in love so why haven't you seen it till now?", ironic, I know. But it is what it is.
I am a major thing for soundtacks so this song blew my socks of and I just can't get it out of my head for too long I might explode if I don't share it with "you". If I was a computer wiz I could just post the link so you could listen to it but I'm not. So here's the lyrics. Go over at youtube.com and listen.
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul ...(repeat chorus to end)
See (or heard?) what I mean? The lyrics just make you fall in love and wait till you here the music! It will transport you to fairyland or something!
I was really hesitant to blog about this song because it talks about love. I mean, what do I know about love? I've never been in love before. But I "think" I know what it would feel.
It would make you feel like the world has stopped and all you see, think, hear, feel is that person you're in love with. You just want to see them every minute of the day and talk and cuddle or whatever. At least that's what they say in the movies.
You know that watch brand Zenith? I saw one of their ads and it qouted Plato "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet". I couldn't agree more (I think).
Shouldn't Ive written this last Valentine's day? Perhaps. It might not be the season of hearts today and I don't have a Valentine but this song by Aqualung is a lot like love in its self.
P.S. This song makes me feel brighter than sunshine. (CORNY!! STOP ALREADY!!)
I am a major thing for soundtacks so this song blew my socks of and I just can't get it out of my head for too long I might explode if I don't share it with "you". If I was a computer wiz I could just post the link so you could listen to it but I'm not. So here's the lyrics. Go over at youtube.com and listen.
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, i don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
I got a feeling in my soul ...(repeat chorus to end)
See (or heard?) what I mean? The lyrics just make you fall in love and wait till you here the music! It will transport you to fairyland or something!
I was really hesitant to blog about this song because it talks about love. I mean, what do I know about love? I've never been in love before. But I "think" I know what it would feel.
It would make you feel like the world has stopped and all you see, think, hear, feel is that person you're in love with. You just want to see them every minute of the day and talk and cuddle or whatever. At least that's what they say in the movies.
You know that watch brand Zenith? I saw one of their ads and it qouted Plato "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet". I couldn't agree more (I think).
Shouldn't Ive written this last Valentine's day? Perhaps. It might not be the season of hearts today and I don't have a Valentine but this song by Aqualung is a lot like love in its self.
P.S. This song makes me feel brighter than sunshine. (CORNY!! STOP ALREADY!!)
Monday, June 8, 2009
Slow(ine flu)
I didn't even know that that pesky Swine flu has reached Cagayan De oro when people started texting me millions of notifications that classes were cancelled to June 16. I was attending a class last Saturday for a review for the dreaded Math placement exam which I doubt I'll pass when I was feeling a little slow. Later did I know when I reached my home that I was having a fever. Which is quite rare for me.
Anyway, I suddenly panicked thinking of having the possibility of having Swine flu virus. I was in a fever while also suffering sore throat at the same time. Not a good sign! But still, being me, I didn't really mind it up to now because I think this is just a normal fever and flu. Or maybe not. I don't know. Well, if I do have one I should've been suffering to the most exxagerated level and admitted in a hospital right now, right? No harm done. Thank God!
Anyway, I suddenly panicked thinking of having the possibility of having Swine flu virus. I was in a fever while also suffering sore throat at the same time. Not a good sign! But still, being me, I didn't really mind it up to now because I think this is just a normal fever and flu. Or maybe not. I don't know. Well, if I do have one I should've been suffering to the most exxagerated level and admitted in a hospital right now, right? No harm done. Thank God!
In case I do have Swine flu (God forbid) I must tell you my gratitude for everything and my apologies (drama!).
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Summer Fun(?)
For those people who didn't know where I was for the last two years, I was in Malaysia with my family. We spent a lot of time "hanging out". I wouldn't really say it was enjoyable because I'm not a big family person but you know, family is family. As the old saying goes "You can choose your friends but you can't choose your family". But that's a hypocritical saying for me though. I mean, when you choose your friends other people say you're being snobby or rude or something, which is what I'm totally not! Major!
I just got home here in the RP last April and everybody was shocked. (Lame sentence!)
I didn't tell anyone I was coming home and bumping with me on the street gave them a big surprise (in a good way, I hope). It was a summer of fixing the damages. Damaged house, education, life (LOL!), bills and especially, friendships.
The last thing I thought I didn't deserve were my old friends because every friend I had came in bad terms with me. i'm not even exxagerating! Okay, maybe a little. But no friend of mine lasted that long because... uhmmm... you now. (Laughs) Oh, you know why! No? I don't really have a good relationship with people. Or the other way, I don't know. My jokes hurt you? Get over it!
The point is that I fixed everything I screwed up before and I am willing to change my ways and just be a good person (No really!). I can't help it if I'm snobby or rude or judgemental or whatever! It's just my nature.
I got in at Xavier University College this year taking up Bachelor of Science in Developmental Communication. It's a course that's close to Mass Communcation but way better, I think. Enrollment was a bitch since it lasted for like a week and I had to suffer the dangerous heat of the sun without sunblock. Not even the thinnest fabrics can save you from Philippine weather. Th heat was excruciating and my skin really absorbed the heat! Talk about hell!
The orientation for freshmen students were boring but the talent excursion event was a joy as it showcased lots of Atenean talent (duh?) I still don't have a friend at school and that really hurts me (in a way). Nobody wants to be my friend! I don't know, they're intimidated? I'm approachable and very fun to be with! So, why? You figure it out and let me know in the comment board. okay?
My mom left early May for Malaysia so me and my sister are stuck here alone (house party!) doing the chores all by ourselves! It's such a pain in the ass! And neck! Not having a mother to do the things for you is quite a change.
I don't know, somehow I can't think of something to write today. Damn this mental blocks! I get them everytime!
Leave comments!
I just got home here in the RP last April and everybody was shocked. (Lame sentence!)
I didn't tell anyone I was coming home and bumping with me on the street gave them a big surprise (in a good way, I hope). It was a summer of fixing the damages. Damaged house, education, life (LOL!), bills and especially, friendships.
The last thing I thought I didn't deserve were my old friends because every friend I had came in bad terms with me. i'm not even exxagerating! Okay, maybe a little. But no friend of mine lasted that long because... uhmmm... you now. (Laughs) Oh, you know why! No? I don't really have a good relationship with people. Or the other way, I don't know. My jokes hurt you? Get over it!
The point is that I fixed everything I screwed up before and I am willing to change my ways and just be a good person (No really!). I can't help it if I'm snobby or rude or judgemental or whatever! It's just my nature.
I got in at Xavier University College this year taking up Bachelor of Science in Developmental Communication. It's a course that's close to Mass Communcation but way better, I think. Enrollment was a bitch since it lasted for like a week and I had to suffer the dangerous heat of the sun without sunblock. Not even the thinnest fabrics can save you from Philippine weather. Th heat was excruciating and my skin really absorbed the heat! Talk about hell!
The orientation for freshmen students were boring but the talent excursion event was a joy as it showcased lots of Atenean talent (duh?) I still don't have a friend at school and that really hurts me (in a way). Nobody wants to be my friend! I don't know, they're intimidated? I'm approachable and very fun to be with! So, why? You figure it out and let me know in the comment board. okay?
My mom left early May for Malaysia so me and my sister are stuck here alone (house party!) doing the chores all by ourselves! It's such a pain in the ass! And neck! Not having a mother to do the things for you is quite a change.
I don't know, somehow I can't think of something to write today. Damn this mental blocks! I get them everytime!
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Welcome Back Joulo!
I've got a new blog and I'm so excited to just write my comments, opinions, violent reactions, etc. Okay, I know you're thinking "violent reactions?" but you have to trust me, I have those!
Unlike my other two canned blogs this one will be more mature (not!) and maybe a little more sensitive about the things I write that might hurt other people (seriously, do you really want it to be PG13? I don't). This blog account is all about (me) my experiences i daily life that I'd like to share. I just got in to college and it wasn't what I expected. Not in a good way. I mean, it was supposed to be in a good way but it didn't turn out like that so it was a little dissapointing.
I knew people but never really befriended one. I don't know. Nobody wants to hang out with me. Do you think I care? No! Like in a big way! Why would I care about ugly people(seriously, they really look ugly) who are snobby who don't even have the slightest hint of class? Total waste of time!
Enough with the welcoming ceremony! It's blogging time!
Unlike my other two canned blogs this one will be more mature (not!) and maybe a little more sensitive about the things I write that might hurt other people (seriously, do you really want it to be PG13? I don't). This blog account is all about (me) my experiences i daily life that I'd like to share. I just got in to college and it wasn't what I expected. Not in a good way. I mean, it was supposed to be in a good way but it didn't turn out like that so it was a little dissapointing.
I knew people but never really befriended one. I don't know. Nobody wants to hang out with me. Do you think I care? No! Like in a big way! Why would I care about ugly people(seriously, they really look ugly) who are snobby who don't even have the slightest hint of class? Total waste of time!
Enough with the welcoming ceremony! It's blogging time!
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