"TSADA"

I really feel sad because someone is going away and I'm never going to see that person for a long time. Maybe. It's just that, what if I never joined? What if I never made an immediate decision? What if I considered my absences to a particular subject? What if that person never thought up to make IT? What if that person was sleeping instead of typing on the computer so early in the morning? What if I never CARED?

So many what if's. So many questions. So little time. Time is an enemy. March 27 is fast approaching. It's now or never. I choose never. It's silly and stupid. It's so childish. Ugh! Why? Why can't I get over it? Why am I always cheerful whenever... Why do I always shun... Why do I think about it and then later refuse to acknowledge it?

I'm tired of this secret roller coaster. I'm done frontin'. I have to forget and move on. Damn! I feel like bursting out!