Highschool Ends, Eventually

Listening to Say You'll Never Go by Erik Santos would be deemed corny, cheap and very jologs but I remembered that song and suddenly had the urge to listen to it and I did. While the song was playing I was looking at old pictures from my Friendster account and felt very sad. I don't know if it was the song or the pictures or maybe both but it made me smile in a hurt kind of way. I really hate memories, no matter how happy they are, because it always makes me sad but the good side there is it makes me realize about important things like friendships.

Right now, as I write this, it's as if the memories are flashing in my head. I want them to stop because I can't feel depressed right now. I really miss everything! My friends, my old schools, the places I hung out, etc. They were memories. Even though I really hate that word, memories, I have to use it.

I know that I've made mistakes with my friends and that I'm not the most well liked person on Earth but the thing is, I miss them! Badly! I can't say sorry enough for 'you' to forgive me but I really am remoseful for everything that I did. If I could just turn back time then I would and make things right I would.

For the sake of looking at old pictures, I looked at the new ones and I felt something. I really hated the feeling but when I was looking at new pictures taken since June up to now, I felt that pang of pain in my heart because they already felt like a memory. Time really passes by doesn't it?

Some people in the pictures were people I don't really care about or bother greeting even though I see them in a daily basis but that made me realize that I should cherish them even if we're not close or anything because those people are part of my past, present and future.

Its sad isn't it? How people come in your life then just go away. We miss them of course, but sometimes you just have to give them up. You were happy but it had to end.

I am currently listening to Prom Theme by Fountains of Wayne and the song is a killing bitch! I suggest you to listen to this song (or Erik Santos') while reading this post or looking at pictures and you will definitely hit that emo button.

We'll see each other again. I know it. And maybe next time every hurt in the past would just go away and we'll remember the happy ones.

Academically Downhill

I won't deny that I'm an irresponsible student because not only that I am, I think I would actually get an A+ for it. The truth is, I'm not really good at this whole education system! I hate studying and listening to boring topics especially those where I have no idea what the relevance is to my course! Yes, Biology and Chemistry! I'm talking about you!

F! F! F! Those were my grades this Midterm. I know, it's like, uhmm... I don't know really know how to explain myself and I won't go there! Or not! Like I said, I hate studying and listening! But that expected F was actually embarassing and degrading! I didn't know that I would feel sad, defeated, belittled by that F mark! Gosh! What the F!

It was true, what they said about college. It's not the same as highschool. Eventually we all have to grow up and take responsibility for our future. The thing is, its not just your future you're ruining but everybody elses. Like your parents' money, they didn't pick them from trees or the streets but worked their asses off for it.

I calculated how many years I would be in college and I decided with 10 years minimum as I would proceed to Law after Developmental Communication. That's 10 years! I have these dreams that I pretty much want to come true and I have to do those before or after 30 at least!

So what am I still doing writing this blog? There's no class tommorow! Study I will, tommorow!

P.S. Do nuts really help?

Bits and Bytes

It has been awhile since I posted something and to tell you the truth, the stories that I'm going to share need some hard recalling. Well, you know me, I often lose friendships and gain new ones and sometimes, take back those lost friendships.

My JANBRCL group and I are at peace already and I couldn't feel more relieved. They invited me to Loreto's twice but I refused because I had other plans. Gosh! They were my friends since highschool and I really miss them! A lot! I'm sure you know what I mean when you miss people you've never seen for a long time because you've had differences and (not necessarily) hate each other. And now, everything's okay! I really hope that this time, it would work out because I really do cherish them.

My batchmates from MaryMount Academy are such pranksters and you would just enjoy their company. I love those guys!

Of course, being me, things are uncertain in my friendships. There is this one friend of mine whom I don't hang out that much anymore when we were supposed to be close. Maybe he was just fed up with me because sometimes I can be bossy or whatever! But the thing is, he can't just blow me off! We're hanging out then suddenly we don't! My other friend who was always part of the group and I nkow has my back is still there! She has been the sweetest person as of late and I really appreciate her.

Anyway, it comes as no surprise that I failed every subject I'm taking. Like literally. Well, this is definitely a wake up call! I really have to study and be serious and not slack off and be lazy! I mean, this is my future we're talking about here! Sorry, I got carried away a little bit.

Did you also know that I'm completely broke? How am I gonna survive with 200 pesos 'till Tuesday? Damn!

I promise you one thing dear readers, I'm gonna blog weekly! Yay! No one wants to visit an outdated blog right?

Lack of Imagination

If you think I posted this pic because I like myself in it, think again! Ugh!

I hate my face! Sometimes.

I'm A Self Confessed Geek Who's A Nerd-A-Holic

I'm literally obsessed with this candy! I have been(obsessed) years ago when I accidentally saw them at Cham's counter and haven't stopped hurting my pocket ever since! Damn you Wonka!

Immaturity of the Red Nosed Reindeer

Crazy things happen to me! I'm just destined to have a crazy uncontrollable life!

Last Wednesday while logging on to Facebook, I decided to finall try buying some of my friends through the application Friends For Sale or FFS. I bought a lot of inexpensive people because I couldn't really afford some of my friends as they've been playing FFS for quite sometime now and their prices went up.

I chanced on buying an old friend who is a girl because she was very, uhmm... cheap! Both literal and figurative! I'm sorry! After buying her, she was stolen from an old schoolmate of mine whom I didn't know at that time was dating my girl friend(thats two words!). So I bought her back and he bought her back again until we were competing! He kept saying bad comments about me but I thought they were like jokes so I didn't mind them. I thought we were having fun! I logged out of Facebook and when I logged back in this afternoon I was surprised to recieve a message from the girl.

She kept thanking me and saying how much she appreciated that I bought her and then told me to stay out of sight of the guy because he was gonna kill me if he sees me. She even told me not to reply and delete the message immedeately! Crazeballs!

I replied of course but deleted the message! What was the big deal? The guy is a joke! Who takes FFS seriously? C'mon! Answer me! Who does? You've gotta be kidding me! The guy even posted on my wall a very harsh message! He didn't really say who it was but it was obvious he was talking about me! He posted it last night which means he didn't get over on how mad he was at me last Wednesday! So that means this guy really takes his investments in FFS seriously! It doesn't matter if you're in a relationship or not! You should go to a dating site instead! How immature!

Truth be told, I'm a little scared when I meet him! It's not really about getting another black eye but of the embarassment! What if people see us? Damn! The worst thing of all is that I see him everyday! If he punches me then I'll punch him back! Isn't that the rule? But if he threatens him then I'll just leave him alone! I'm not asking for a fight or a boxing match because I don't have the strength to punch someone! I have a very bony fist and that means it's soft! God help me! I was really panicking about the message from the girl asking me to lay low and stuff! The guy is pretty mamirahay type of guy.

To the guy: Grow up! I know why you didn't include your last name at Facebook because its pretty funny and I know what it is!

To the girl: Hello? You can't even defend me? You bitch! You should thank me for not erasing you in my account! Thank God you were the one who invited me!

P.S. You know the christmas song? That's his name! Red Nosed Reindeer! Go figure!

The Funeral

Ate Karen crying while giving a heartfelt speech.

The whole family. A picture of moving on.

Burying the coffin.