Highschool Ends, Eventually

Listening to Say You'll Never Go by Erik Santos would be deemed corny, cheap and very jologs but I remembered that song and suddenly had the urge to listen to it and I did. While the song was playing I was looking at old pictures from my Friendster account and felt very sad. I don't know if it was the song or the pictures or maybe both but it made me smile in a hurt kind of way. I really hate memories, no matter how happy they are, because it always makes me sad but the good side there is it makes me realize about important things like friendships.

Right now, as I write this, it's as if the memories are flashing in my head. I want them to stop because I can't feel depressed right now. I really miss everything! My friends, my old schools, the places I hung out, etc. They were memories. Even though I really hate that word, memories, I have to use it.

I know that I've made mistakes with my friends and that I'm not the most well liked person on Earth but the thing is, I miss them! Badly! I can't say sorry enough for 'you' to forgive me but I really am remoseful for everything that I did. If I could just turn back time then I would and make things right I would.

For the sake of looking at old pictures, I looked at the new ones and I felt something. I really hated the feeling but when I was looking at new pictures taken since June up to now, I felt that pang of pain in my heart because they already felt like a memory. Time really passes by doesn't it?

Some people in the pictures were people I don't really care about or bother greeting even though I see them in a daily basis but that made me realize that I should cherish them even if we're not close or anything because those people are part of my past, present and future.

Its sad isn't it? How people come in your life then just go away. We miss them of course, but sometimes you just have to give them up. You were happy but it had to end.

I am currently listening to Prom Theme by Fountains of Wayne and the song is a killing bitch! I suggest you to listen to this song (or Erik Santos') while reading this post or looking at pictures and you will definitely hit that emo button.

We'll see each other again. I know it. And maybe next time every hurt in the past would just go away and we'll remember the happy ones.